Adults Blow

Yes most of my posts are all fluffy, kittens, rainbows, and sunshine.  However, today I'm reflecting on relationships.  I've had to make many changes with relationships in my adult life; mostly when it has become toxic or one sided.  I know that relationships morph, some for the good and some for the bad, and as you know I'm a bit of a sentimental sap, so when my relationships begin to change it saddens me. Mainly when close relationships aren't as close anymore; my feelings get hurt and yet I find myself reaching out more just to try to fix them to no avail.  I feel like I'm constantly re-evaluating my relationships, stepping away when it becomes unhealthy, and stepping closer when its full of love and happiness.

Being an adult kind of blows sometimes.  Anyone else share these same sentiments?  Someone gave me really good advice recently and it has stuck with me and has helped me feel less "hurt".  There are times in our life where what someone gives in a relationship is ALL that they can give, AT THAT TIME.  You know how you can hear something over and over, yet at that one particular moment, at that one particular time ... you finally GET IT?  Lol, as Oprah would say ... your "ah-ha" moment.  Yea that shit's legit and really happens.

I began to think about that jeweled advice and reflect back on my past challenges; especially when it took moving a mountain to get my ass out of bed.  I can only imagine how selfish I may have appeared, with good reason, but yet still selfish ... in the sense of all I could do was take.  I had nothing left in me to give; I was broken, depressed, and trying desperately to claw my way out of that period.  All I could do was TAKE. My only hope is that the ones in my life understood that advice and didn't feel used or abandoned in my process of healing.

So today, I'm reflecting on this "hurt" that I am feeling with my relationships that are changing.  What they give is all they can give at this moment, and I only hope one day they can give more because I love everyone who has been in my life and those relationships mean the world to me.  We've shared moments of sadness, happiness, tears of joy, and bonding that will never be forgotten.  Since I received such great advice to help me hurt a little less, I feel I must also share some advice to you.  Sometimes we get really wrapped up in our busy lives and its important to not forget those who also love to be a part of that life.  Take a minute to call, text, or invite over.  You would be amazed just how awesome that makes them feel <3

Besos!  Go.Be.Love

Oh hey ... I'm a RN ... NBD

"Gee June, how are you doing?"  "Oh you know just being a badass RN is all."  :)  After many,many,many, many years of studying and planning the day has arrived!  I can not tell you how ecstatic it feels to be finally finished; its a tad bit surreal still and I'm sure it will remain that way for quite a  long time.  Don't you just love how that rolls off your tongue? June the RN.  Its practically superhero-ish if you ask me!  The only thing lacking is my cape ... but I'm sure with all this free time I have now there will be one in tow very soon!

Our graduation was magical, yes ... magical.  I was on the planning committee with three other fabu ladies and spent an ungodly amount of time planning, just to make it in indeed magical for all of our classmates.  We had a number of classmates that have NEVER had a graduation before and for many this degree was the first ever in their families.  As you can imagine, we set out to make this a time everyone would remember and be proud of.  

This graduating class is truly special and I feel like I really lucked out by joining such a sweet and supportive group of people.  My only regret?  That I wasn't in their program the entire two years.  I will truly miss every single one of them!  I'm sure we will always be in touch, we've grown so much together!  Please enjoy my pictures from graduation!  It was a classy night indeed! :)  PS at the very end of this post I've added the slideshows I made for the ceremony!  They literally took me a gazillion hours to make ... the perfectionist in me had a hay day!  Enjoy!!

Our "fun" video capturing the last two years for many... and for me the last year!

Lastly, this one is a big long but it was the most emotional for everyone  in attendance.  Instead of your typical reading of the graduating student names; I put a slideshow together that incorporated each students personal "thank you".  While each student stood to walk up and obtain their pin, the personal "thank you" statement was playing in the background.  Sigh ... I'm getting sentimental just looking at all these pics again and videos from that night .... will somebody get this girl a tissue and nutella ... stat! :P