Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Adults Blow

Yes most of my posts are all fluffy, kittens, rainbows, and sunshine.  However, today I'm reflecting on relationships.  I've had to make many changes with relationships in my adult life; mostly when it has become toxic or one sided.  I know that relationships morph, some for the good and some for the bad, and as you know I'm a bit of a sentimental sap, so when my relationships begin to change it saddens me. Mainly when close relationships aren't as close anymore; my feelings get hurt and yet I find myself reaching out more just to try to fix them to no avail.  I feel like I'm constantly re-evaluating my relationships, stepping away when it becomes unhealthy, and stepping closer when its full of love and happiness.

Being an adult kind of blows sometimes.  Anyone else share these same sentiments?  Someone gave me really good advice recently and it has stuck with me and has helped me feel less "hurt".  There are times in our life where what someone gives in a relationship is ALL that they can give, AT THAT TIME.  You know how you can hear something over and over, yet at that one particular moment, at that one particular time ... you finally GET IT?  Lol, as Oprah would say ... your "ah-ha" moment.  Yea that shit's legit and really happens.

I began to think about that jeweled advice and reflect back on my past challenges; especially when it took moving a mountain to get my ass out of bed.  I can only imagine how selfish I may have appeared, with good reason, but yet still selfish ... in the sense of all I could do was take.  I had nothing left in me to give; I was broken, depressed, and trying desperately to claw my way out of that period.  All I could do was TAKE. My only hope is that the ones in my life understood that advice and didn't feel used or abandoned in my process of healing.

So today, I'm reflecting on this "hurt" that I am feeling with my relationships that are changing.  What they give is all they can give at this moment, and I only hope one day they can give more because I love everyone who has been in my life and those relationships mean the world to me.  We've shared moments of sadness, happiness, tears of joy, and bonding that will never be forgotten.  Since I received such great advice to help me hurt a little less, I feel I must also share some advice to you.  Sometimes we get really wrapped up in our busy lives and its important to not forget those who also love to be a part of that life.  Take a minute to call, text, or invite over.  You would be amazed just how awesome that makes them feel <3

Besos!  Go.Be.Love

Saturday, May 10, 2014

Oh hey ... I'm a RN ... NBD

"Gee June, how are you doing?"  "Oh you know just being a badass RN is all."  :)  After many,many,many, many years of studying and planning the day has arrived!  I can not tell you how ecstatic it feels to be finally finished; its a tad bit surreal still and I'm sure it will remain that way for quite a  long time.  Don't you just love how that rolls off your tongue? June the RN.  Its practically superhero-ish if you ask me!  The only thing lacking is my cape ... but I'm sure with all this free time I have now there will be one in tow very soon!

Our graduation was magical, yes ... magical.  I was on the planning committee with three other fabu ladies and spent an ungodly amount of time planning, just to make it in indeed magical for all of our classmates.  We had a number of classmates that have NEVER had a graduation before and for many this degree was the first ever in their families.  As you can imagine, we set out to make this a time everyone would remember and be proud of.  

This graduating class is truly special and I feel like I really lucked out by joining such a sweet and supportive group of people.  My only regret?  That I wasn't in their program the entire two years.  I will truly miss every single one of them!  I'm sure we will always be in touch, we've grown so much together!  Please enjoy my pictures from graduation!  It was a classy night indeed! :)  PS at the very end of this post I've added the slideshows I made for the ceremony!  They literally took me a gazillion hours to make ... the perfectionist in me had a hay day!  Enjoy!!

Our "fun" video capturing the last two years for many... and for me the last year!

Lastly, this one is a big long but it was the most emotional for everyone  in attendance.  Instead of your typical reading of the graduating student names; I put a slideshow together that incorporated each students personal "thank you".  While each student stood to walk up and obtain their pin, the personal "thank you" statement was playing in the background.  Sigh ... I'm getting sentimental just looking at all these pics again and videos from that night .... will somebody get this girl a tissue and nutella ... stat! :P

Monday, March 3, 2014

2 more days...

Holy crap!  Can you believe I only have 2 more days left of my preceptorship? Seriously, where did the time go?  It literally seems like yesterday I started ... and here I am almost completing it!  At the very beginning of my rotation I did not think I would survive ... luckily I did :)

Working on this medical-surgical pediatric unit has been absolutely wonderful.  The staff is super supportive and show great patience with my inexperience nursing student self! I have been working 13 hour days which leaves me just enough time to come home, shower the ickies off, eat, read for 30 minutes before I have to go to bed and start all over again at 5 am!  This unit definitely kicks your bootey!  These nurses are the nurses that all of those quotes talk about; long shifts, missing breaks, mandatory overtime, etc.  I can definitely say I have even  more respect for this group of ladies and men!  I will add that there are lots of ladies who are preggers on this unit and I seriously have no idea how they are surviving!   Makes me shudder to think that soon I will be in there shoes and if I'm barely surviving now ... lol lordy help me!  I can say working this preceptorship has cemented that babies and pediatrics is where I need to be in my future nursing career wherever that may take me.  Fingers crossed I land an amazing job doing just that! :)

On another note, I graduate in 17 days!  What what!  Now this news literally is such a trip and surreal all at the same time!  I set out 7 years ago taking one pre-requisite class at a time because I had this dream that I wanted to be a Registered Nurse.  Well ladies and gents in 17 days I have accomplished the biggest goal I have ever set for myself and it feels UH-MAHZING!!

Did I mention on my last post that I am on the pinning committee for our graduating class?  If I did ... well excuse this absent mind :) If not well .... let me just tell you ... our graduation night will be fabulous all because of myself and three other fabulous ladies. We are coordinating an event to remember.    When I say event, I mean EVENT.  We are in charge of finding a venue, catering, decorations, speeches, designing the coveted nursing pin, slideshows, designing invitations/programs, and more!  (Which our class has to fund ... on a nursing students budget!)  It truly will be an event remembered forever by not only our classmates, but the family and faculty that will be our honored guests.  I have devoted over 50 hours to this night, and my other gals on the pinning committee have also dedicated that same amount of time.  I will definitely be posting pictures of the night when it comes!  So for now .... you'll just have to wait because I'm not giving up any of the juicy details of this night! :)

Well, back to some NCLEX studying!  Hope all is wonderful in your world!


Wednesday, February 12, 2014

12 hour shifts

Holy moly!  Yesterday I completed my first 12 hour shift as a nursing student!  I told Tyler that after yesterday I only had 11 more shifts to go ... then it dawned on me that duh June your going to be a Registered Nurse ... with about a million more of these 12 hour shifts.  Lol ... there goes the easy school days ... which I know I will miss!

To my readers, sorry I haven't blogged in awhile.  Seems like I've been doing a lot of that lately, so please bare with me as I catch you up on the last year of my life! :)  In the last 365 days I've done the following:

1.) I FINALLY got accepted into a Registered Nursing program at Highline CC (March 2013)
2.) The lover...aka Tyler ... moved back home from Bellingham to be with THIS girl!  Woot woot I'm such a lucky girl!
3.) Tyler and I took one step forward together ... we moved in together :)  We are living in an adorable place in North Tacoma.  Perfect area for us, school is nearby and the area offers so much culture and nightlife!
4.)  As if applying to an Associates in Registered Nursing program wasn't enough, I decided to further torture my brain and apply to the University of Washington Registered Nursing Bachelor program!  (Still awaiting if I get in!  I have to be tortured and wait until April 2014 before they tell me the good news or really upsetting news!)
5.)  For some you are just reading about my acceptance into the RN program at Highline; but I actually graduate THIS March 20th!  Holy crapola!  Can you believe it!  It's as if the last year was only a minute long!
6.) As if I'm not already busy enough, I volunteered to be on our graduating class "pinning committee." Basically, this committee consists of me and 3 other fine ladies who literally have to plan and orchestrate our entire graduation.  The college doesn't do this .... shocking right?  Lol I do have to add that I've put in about 50-60  hours of work on our graduation and I do believe that our graduation will surpass anything that the college could have done for us even if they did the planning!  Toot toot .... thats the sound I'm making as I toot my own horn! :P
7.) What are these 12 hour shifts I am referring to?  Well, I have just started my very last clinical rotation with Highline CC, I have landed a preceptorship at Mary Bridge Hospital in their Med-Surg unit.

Phew! Busy year!  Its incredible to me to think about the fact that I set out to complete a goal, become a Registered Nurse, and I am almost there!  I graduate March 20th!  That is in 36 days .... 36 days!! Amazing!  All I have left of my last quarter is to complete my rotation with Mary Bridge, which so far I'm loving!  I love being in Pediatrics and I hope that when I graduate my luck continues and I'm able to land one of their few treasured residency positions!  Fingers crossed!

I have so much respect for the nurse who is working with me right now, Karen.  She is what I strive to be as a nurse; she is respectful, loving, and on her A game 100% of the time.  That woman has more energy than me and she is 15-20 years older than I!  Our 12 hour shifts just zoom by, and I am desperately trying my hardest to keep up with her and not get in her way.  For being in a nursing program for the last 2 years, I sure realize just how much MORE I need to know.  As a student nurse it is frustrating to not know everything and not be able to help out to the extent my mind makes me feel that I should.  I look forward to the days where I am confident in my abilities and it comes naturally. :)  Until then I may have to increase my glass of wine volume at night!

So today, I am naming it accordingly as my "day of rest" after my 1st 12 hour shift. I'm exhausted and it's only just begun!  I'm looking forward to the days where my body  and mind gets used to these days! In fairness, I do need to add I've had a sinus infection for over a week now.  My body is just hanging on to this gunk ... which is probably contributing to my fatigue.  Garh!!  Awe the joys of having sinus issues!

Well, thats as far as the update you will get for the moment ... I'm going to do a little studying for a little thing I call the NCLEX because that's the next hurdle I need to jump over to become a Registered Nurse.  That test date will be sometime in April ... lol don't worry you will hear me talk about that issue so much more ... but for right now that will have to be on another day!